The story of an onboard

First of all, Sylvia (If you are reading this); I'm not ignoring you on purpose. I am giving you the space and the silence that you requested me to give too you from earlier before. However, it hurts my heart because I still love you and I still care about you; I hope you are doing well and that you are getting proper treatment for Depression. 

    I just finished servicing the previous bus stop at 5310 Finch Avenue East and I was approaching the Tiffield Road at Finch Avenue East. I already had a full-standing load and passengers were crowding near the front of the bus. I noticed that there were at least four people waiting for my bus, I slowly came to a safe and complete stop. I lowered the bus and authorized all the doors, because some people might want off as well at that stop.

    When it was safe to do so, I raised the bus, and closed all the doors. I looked left and right to make sure that the way was clear, then I put on my left signal indicator and I checked one last time to see if anyone else was coming, but there was none so I started to accelerate and move off. While moving off, I heard a thump near the back of the bus, but I wasn’t sure what it was so I slowly brought the bus to a safe and complete stop. Then I secured the bus, because people standing near the front of the bus was blocking the view of the centre aisle. I raised myself out of the operator’s seat to see what has happened and it took me another 30 to 45 seconds to process what happened, because people were blocking the view of the centre aisle.

    Another passenger near the front of the bus informed me that a passenger had fell on my bus and immediately I hit the Yellow Alarm. I was instructed by Transit Control to Stop and Stay, which I did. I then asked the elderly passenger if she was okay and if she needed medical assistance, but the elderly passenger declined and said that this has happened before. I had all the passengers and including the elderly passenger get accommodated on the following bus.

    What I think happened was that there were too many passengers who were crowding around the front of the bus with parcels and buggies, which contributed for the elderly passenger falling down after trying to reach a priority seat. I wasn’t able to fully grasp what had happened, because I had a full-standing load and that the passengers blocked the view of what actually happened.

    We try the best to provide great customer service and a comfortable ride to wherever the customer is going. Most of the times we cannot control the way that a customer will react or behave.

Promagstyle · Ken Chu - Come Inside My Guitar

Dizziness

Just finished doing my circle check on my bus and everything seems okay except for one window hinge on the open-side of the bus at the very rear.

While doing my circle check, I did notice that I was getting dizzy. Not sure if the dizziness is brought on by not taking a nap after my first shift or it was probably something that I ate earlier in the morning. However, I am feeling dizzy right now and I hope that I can make through the rest of my day performing my duties.

I also did a vlog for Sylvia, because she means so much to me. I told her that I love her still and that my heart is beating for her; I want her to be with me again and I pray to God that she knows how much I love her and care about her; that I will send her more money for treatment of her depression. 

I was having difficulty with adding music to my blog and this was what I was doing when I got home after my first shift and also I got my schedule for Saturday, because I did a shift exchange earlier in the month, so I will be working six days this week instead of the normal five. I hope I will be okay, love you Sylvia…. Miss you.

Ali Gatie - Tell me Lyrics:

Tell me you love me

Tell me you need me
Tell me you want me
And you'll never leave me
Just tell me you'll stay
And that we'll be okay

I was all alone
Back before I knew you were the one
I lost hope
Never thought I'd ever be enough
That's why I gave up on love

You brought the color in my life when everything was dark
One look into your eyes and since then you had all my heart
I wish that I could say I fell
I'm still falling in love

So tell me you love me
Tell me you need me
Just tell me you want me
And you'll never leave me
Just tell me you'll stay
And that we'll be okay
Oh

I hope when we're fighting
And giving up's easy
When I need reminding
That you're never leaving
You'll tell me to stay
Tell me we'll be okay

I hope that you'll stay
I hope that you'll stay
I hope that you'll stay
I hope that you'll tell me
Tell me
Tell me
Tell me you'll stay

Friday, May 23rd, 2025

I have included a list of Organizations that deal with Depression, because I want to see you to get better and fully recover:

MIND HK - In Hong Kong, numerous resources are available for individuals struggling with depression, including free support and professional services. For those experiencing mild to moderate anxiety, depression, or emotional issues, MIND HK provides free, one-on-one mental health support.

GovHK Health - For those with more serious psychological distress, the Clinical Psychological Service of the Social Welfare Department can provide free professional help and advice. Contact a social worker or call the Social Welfare Department hotline at 2343-2255 for assistance.

Hong Kong Christian Counselling Service Limited - Hong Kong Christian Counseling Service was founded in 2007. We are charitable organization registered under section 88 of Inland Revenue Department. We provide counseling that integrates Christian-based principles with professional psychotherapy.

Our goal is to use counseling skills to help individuals cope with their problems in a Biblical way.

While most of our clients are Christians, we also work with other people, regardless of religion, ethnicity, socioeconomic status or ability to pay. 

St. John's Cathedral Counseling Service - St John’s Cathedral Counselling Service (SJCCS) is a self-sufficient Non-Profit Organisation. We have over 40 years’ experience providing professional counselling and psychotherapy services to community members in Hong Kong regardless of age, race, gender, nationality, residence status, religion, faith and income.

Hub and Spokes International  - We are a Christian Counseling Practice in Hong Kong that Provides mental health and spiritual care with a holistic perspective. We focus on transformation that lasts.

Christian Family Service Centre - CFSC 基督教家庭服務中心

Sylvia, whatever organization you choose to help you with you're depression; I will support you to the fullest and also please let me know which one because I will pay for the treatment. It is my fault that I gave you severe depression and the only thing I want right now is for you to be back to normal.

How profoundly regretful and sorry I am

Its been awhile since I posted anything to blogger. I can't even believe that my account is still active after my last post was like 15 years ago. However a lot has changed since I have been away from blogger and now I am making the most sincere post that I have ever made about someone that I admire and care about. Her name is 실비아 which translates into Sylvia in Korean. If she (실비아) is reading this, I just want her to know that I am absolutely and profoundly sorry for hurting her physically and emotionally. It was not my intention to hurt the both of us, but it was my intention to make Sylvia understand how much I love her and care about her, so much that I loved her more than myself. I'm real sorry for what I have done and now its like every passing day is a painful reminder of what I did to her. I miss her voice, smile, touch, kindness, gratitude, and most of all her presence in my life brought out the best of me. I apologize for what I did to Sylvia and I want her to know that I love her and care about her each and everyday; I worry about her mental health as well and I hope she has a complete healthy recovery, because I told her that I wanted her to be my loving wife and I wanted to be her loving husband. Sylvia, I miss you and I hope you are feeling better. I hope you understand how sorry I am and that I did not mean to make you so upset / angry at me. I feel so much regret and remorse for what I did and now I'm being punished for being stupid. Please forgive me for what I did wrong to you. Even if I have to get down on my hands and knees; and crawl for you're forgiveness I will. Un-Mute the video below by clicking on the "Speaker" to hear the music of my heart!